I was talking to my mom the other night, asking her what was new. She said that nothing was new. Moooommm, I said. You always say nothing is new. And she said, BETH. Nothing IS new. I go to work, come home. Go to work, come home. Go to work, come home. I never wake up wondering what is going to happen tomorrow!
Well, momma. You're not the only one who feels that way.
I'm just tired, friends. I'm so tired. I'm thankful to be Village Manor's property manager, but it's been so hard, because for the past... I don't know, three months, I feel like Village Manor has gotten the best of me. And by that I mean the best part of me. Going to work & fulfilling those demands has taken all of my time and energy, and, at the end of the day, I feel like I have nothing left to give to anyone or anything else. I'm keeping my house fairly clean, because I require that to maintain my sanity, but that's about it.
I miss my husband, and I live in the same house as he does. I feel like I haven't had a free moment to spend time with friends in forever. I'm trying to maintain an exercise routine, but it's been hard when I just want to collapse at the end of the day. I'm totally behind on my google reader, never mind actually posting on my own blog. I want to use my sewing machine, but it just sits & collects dust. I have a nice camera that I'd like to learn how to use, but again with the collecting dust. And it's getting cold, and I HATE the cold, and isn't this just the most depressing blog you've ever read?
I think this is why I've avoided posting lately. I think it's generally better to say nothing than to whine. But to those of you who have kindly asked where I've been -- I've been at work. And I'm sad about it. You see?
This too shall pass -- I'm hanging on to that hope. October and all of its busy-ness is almost over, and hoping that November will bring a fresh start with it. A more normal, less crazy work schedule is a the top of my "fresh start" list. I'm ready to feel like myself again.
So here's to NOVEMBER. I need a new beginning!